can we talk? just us?
Lately, there’s been a lot of things changing, what feels like very rapidly. I have lost track of time again, and that scares me. Things and people around me are growing & aging, in time that's only passing.
But on a lighter note-
Life has also been feeling really good. I have a new apartment secured for September, and I am learning to write fiction… so maybe some short stories on the way. I also went to Las Vegas and it was amazing. I went with my family, and we had a fucking blast. I also was extremely sick with a sore throat during it, but fuck it we ball.
And guess what?
I’m writing a new book! I could not be more excited for what’s to come, and if you know me, you know that writing and evolving myself & my literature means the most to me, & I want to reflect this in my new book. I want it to be a combination of a ton of things, like an anthropology of a bunch of shit that's hard to talk about. I don't know for sure yet, but I adore getting ahead of myself.
It’s going to take me some time of course, because I always start with a premise, and an idea of exactly what I want to create, but as I work on it, the more changes I start to make, and ultimately, the more unhinged I become.
Besides this & the fucking submarine that went missing, there’s been a couple things sitting in my mind. Like I mentioned earlier, it continues to strike me that time is only passing, and lately it just feels like I am waiting for something to happen. Am I just having a moment of peace? Am I supposed to feel safe in life’s mundane moments? Am I supposed to change something? I feel like I have so much to figure out, and virtually no time.
What’s a girl to do?
In times like these, I like to slow down and count my blessings. Literally. My family is alive and well, my job is stable, my dog is healthy, and I am loved. I am loved & alive. And fed. I also got new heels.
What’re you thankful for today?
Lemme know. DM me on IG @zoeeuhh.
Ps: I know todays post was more or less a diary entry, and even my own boyfriend asked me, "Why don't you post this somewhere more accessible?" Well, rude first of all, (jk love him sm) and because these are MY thoughts, and feelings, and revelations etc. I wanna share them with anyone who will listen and maybe even make some people feel less alone, no matter where that may be. I love every single one of you who take the time out of your day to read anything that I create, and I plan to bring some real juicy shit to your feeds every week.
xo - zo
